“…Boss. I’ll head that way then.”
“……”
When I didn’t respond, Emma turned off the light and came over to the bed, lying down.
Thud.
As soon as Emma lay down, my worries became reality.
The bed was so small that Emma and I were pressed right up against each other.
Squish, thud.
The sensation of my arm touching Emma’s soft skin was incredibly intoxicating.
But what drove me even crazier was the smell.
‘…Is she using shampoo out here in the West by herself?’
Of course, in this era, there was no such thing as shampoo or body wash.
But just the sweet scent of Emma’s skin made me feel as if I were drunk and dazed.
“Goodnight, Boss.”
“…You too.”
With that, Emma closed her eyes.
Seeing that, I also tightly shut my eyes, but…
Thump, thump, thump.
My heart was pounding so hard I couldn’t sleep.
“Sigh…”
To avoid even glancing at Emma, I turned my body toward the wall.
Squish.
In the already narrow bed, forcing myself to turn made my face press against the wall, squishing it.
The discomfort of my face being squished was nothing compared to the fact that a nine-tailed fox was sleeping next to me.
At first, I endured the discomfort and tried to keep sleeping, but…
Sleep didn’t come at all, and the discomfort of my face pressing against the wall turned into soreness.
‘If I keep sleeping like this, I’ll get a cramp.’
Just as I was worrying about my cheek…
Snore…
A very faint, rhythmic breathing sound came from beside me, so subtle that an ordinary person wouldn’t notice.
‘…Emma fell asleep fast. Was she tired?’
As soon as I realized Emma was asleep, a sudden sense of emptiness washed over me.
‘I thought Emma was deliberately trying to seduce me… but maybe not.’
Maybe Emma had no ulterior motives and just wanted to sleep.
The fact that I had gotten all worked up over Emma’s innocent actions made me laugh bitterly.
‘Ugh, what am I even doing?’
There’s no way I can sleep like this.
I carefully peeled my squished cheek off the wall and turned my body to get more comfortable.
But then…
“……”
“……”
As soon as I turned, what I saw was Emma’s glowing eyes.
If only it were just her eyes…
But her skin, illuminated by the moonlight… the strap of her shoulder that had slipped down…
It was all too vivid in my eyes.
“……”
Emma didn’t say a word, but through her eyes, I could hear her voice.
A line from a Japanese manga I couldn’t even remember the title of.
‘Finally, you’re looking at me.’
The only difference was that while that manga was a innocent school story, here there was only a predator-prey relationship.
I was the prey, and Emma was the hunter trying to catch me.
But if I reached out here, I could reverse this relationship.
I could become the hunter, and Emma would be the prey I devoured.
Do I need to hold back any longer? …No, can I even hold back any longer?
Swish.
My hand, already losing restraint, reached out toward Emma.
Past her slightly damp hair that clung to her cheek…
My hand moved toward Emma’s mouth.
Slick.
I first brushed my finger over Emma’s lips.
After thoroughly enjoying the moist, fruit-like texture of her lips, I slipped my thumb into her mouth.
Though startled by my sudden action… Emma accepted my finger.
Suck.
The mature Emma sucked on my thumb like a baby with a pacifier.
Suck, suck.
At first, it was clumsy, just with her lips…
But then…
Squish.
As if practicing for what was to come, her soft tongue wrapped around my finger.
“…Ah.”
Overwhelmed by the sensation, I could no longer hold back and climbed on top of Emma.
And like a beast that had been starving for days…
Chuup.
“Huff…, chuup…”
I devoured Emma’s lips.
Chup, chuup.
Soon, the sound of sticky saliva mixing filled the office.
No matter how generously I judged it, Emma’s tongue movements were utterly clumsy.
But the fact that Emma, the all-capable secretary who excelled at everything, was only clumsy at this made me even more excited.
“Ugh…, phaa… B-Boss… A little slower… Ugh, chuup…”
This was probably Emma’s first kiss.
Emma would later recall this moment as one where she could barely breathe.
I was that rough… a bit forceful as I explored her tongue.
It felt like we had been tangling tongues for hours.
By then, my mouth had more of Emma’s saliva than my own, and Emma had swallowed more of mine than her own.
I teasingly smiled at the struggling Emma and said,
“…Emma, now it’s your turn.”
“Haa…, haa…, …Huh?”
“I’ll stay still, so you try.”
At my somewhat mischievous words, Emma looked a little annoyed, as if I were being too much…
But seeing her like that in bed only made it more amusing.
With my arms trapping Emma and me doing nothing, Emma had no choice but to reach out and cradle the back of my head.
And then…
Suck.
She leaned in and kissed me first.
At first, she pecked at my lips like a bird pecking.
But when I opened my lips slightly, encouraging her to do more…
Slurp.
Emma hesitantly slipped her tongue into my mouth.
At first, she just touched her tongue to mine, like a child tasting candy for the first time.
After getting a bit more comfortable, she carefully licked my tongue like a mother cat grooming her kitten.
*Lick.*
Emma is the typical cold beauty type.
No matter how beautiful Emma is, no one would think of her as cute.
But Emma, with her eyes tightly closed, pressing close to me and desperately licking my tongue…
*Lick, lick.*
She was just too cute.
So cute that… I couldn’t hold back.
“Mmm… Huh? Ugh…”
Unable to control myself, I wrapped my tongue around hers once more.
After a long kiss, I pulled away and looked down to see Emma gazing up at me with half-closed, seductive eyes.
“Ha… Ha…”
“……”
Emma seemed to already anticipate my next move.
In fact, I was planning to fully devour her from this point on.
*Swish.*
I grabbed the thin strap of Emma’s slip and slowly pulled it down.
As Emma’s pale naked body gradually revealed itself, my heart raced like crazy.
At that moment, Emma, half-undressed, asked me,
“…Boss. I love you. …Do you love me?”
“I love you.”
Already consumed by lust, I was in a hurry, and the most important thing was to finish undressing Emma.
For that, I could say “I love you” a hundred more times if needed.
But…
“…Then, Boss.”
Hearing Emma’s next words, I had no choice but to stop undressing her.
“Will you always stay by my side forever?”
“……”
As soon as I heard those words, memories of my first experience in this godforsaken West came flooding back.
Not as Dokgo Young from Korea… but as Noah from the West.
‘…Let’s do it again, Jenny.’
‘Ha… Kid. I’m so tired…’
‘I love you.’
She loved hearing me say “I love you.”
So much so that she would agree to any difficult request if I said it.
Back then, when I thought she might refuse, I said “I love you” like using a free pass.
Then she asked again.
‘…Then, Kid.’
‘……Yeah.’
‘Will you always stay by my side forever?’
At that time, I was in a hurry.
Just like now.
‘Of course.’
I answered like that, but in my mind, I was thinking about filling up a million dollars and going back home.
Above all, I boldly promised to always be by her side, but now…
I’m not by her side.
Later, that lie turned my first, ecstatic experience into an unpleasant memory.
After that, I couldn’t have sex with women for a long time.
Every time I tried to get close to someone…
‘Will you always stay by my side forever?’
That question lingered in my ears, giving me a foreboding feeling that if I couldn’t hold back now, I wouldn’t be able to go home.
But after some time had passed, I was about to repeat that same mistake.
‘…Then, Boss.’
‘Will you always stay by my side forever?’
My body screamed to answer quickly and finish what I was doing with Emma.
But…
“…Boss?”
“……”
I couldn’t bring myself to speak.
After a long silence, the words I finally managed to say were…
“…Sorry.”
The worst possible thing for both Emma and me.
“…I’m sorry.”
“……”
As soon as she heard that, Emma’s eyes sank.
Maybe because my mind was in chaos, I couldn’t quite grasp the exact emotion in Emma’s eyes.
*Click.*
Moreover, I didn’t have the confidence to keep looking into Emma’s eyes, so I got up and walked out.
“Ahhhhhhh-!!!!!”
I screamed as loud as I could into the darkness, but the knot in my heart wouldn’t easily unravel.
“…Damn it. …This damn game. This goddamn game.”
I spent a long time cursing this world and standing in the cold wind before going back inside.
And when I returned…
[I’m sorry, Boss. I think I’ll go home today.]
“……”
Emma was gone, and only a short letter greeted me.
It seemed Emma had gone home through the back door.
I threw Emma’s letter on the ground and lay down on the bed.
The bed felt spacious again now that I had it to myself, but sleep didn’t come.
“…Damn it.”
I spent that night wide awake.
*Knock knock knock knock.*
The one who came to see me early in the morning, looking haggard from not sleeping a wink, was Jet.
“Kid-! There’s been a murder-! Zodiac struck again… Huh? Y-you look… Are you okay…?”
“…I’m fine, let’s go.”
At Jet’s visit, I grabbed my clothes and gun and went out as if I had been waiting.
If I didn’t do something now, I felt like I would go crazy.
I needed an outlet for my anger.
