Chapter 4

Chapter 4 I Turned Into… A Maiden?!

I fear I am going to die again.

Seemingly having accepted my death, the swordsman did not continue his attack but turned and left with a step.

I saw the look in his eyes as he looked back at me. It was as if everything had finally returned to peace, a sense of relief.

No hatred, no anger, no pity, no regret.

“Is… it… my… fault?”

My voice was weak and humble, almost inaudible.

But the swordsman turned around instantly, his eyes wide open.

“You can speak human language?!” His tone was slightly off, as if something unimaginable had happened before him, shocking him beyond measure.

Yes, probably because I had devoured a human soul.

“I… what… am… I.”

How laughable, on the verge of death, do I still need to care about this?

But I just want an answer.

As expected, there was no reply.

My body was gradually disintegrating, turning into tiny black ashes.

The ashes scattered, emitting a thin white light that illuminated the small space shrouded in black smoke, casting a desolate color.

The swordsman’s face hidden among the ashes was complex and indistinct.

My vision was also gradually blurring. Extreme fatigue overwhelmed me, my eyelids growing heavier.

“Do… you… not know… what you are?”

The swordsman finally spoke.

“I… don’t… know… I… didn’t want to hurt… why…”

“I… don’t… know… why…”

I closed my eyes.

…………

I am going to die again.

This “again” is so subtle.

But I really feel like I cannot be saved anymore.

Forget it, if I die, then let it be. It would be better to die; there would be nothing to think about.

No worries, no troubles. No pain, no sorrow.

And no need to be a monster no one likes.

When I was still human, no one understood me. Now, after dying and reviving in this form, even less people could understand me.

That’s just how it goes.

Actually, if I think carefully, maybe it’s not all others’ fault.

If I had spent more time communicating with my parents…

Any troubles should not be bottled up inside. Speak them out instead of bearing everything alone.

Perhaps there would have been a good ending.

At the moment I jumped from the rooftop, I realized that choosing death is a very cowardly act, merely irresponsible avoidance.

Avoiding all pain and disappointments, avoiding all problems that should be faced by oneself.

My parents must be very sad now. They might even blame themselves for my death and never forgive themselves.

Thinking of this, I felt regretful.

But now, thinking about these things is useless.

So, this is the punishment for my immaturity, turning me into a monster unable to communicate with others?

Is this a penalty for my immaturity?

…………

If I had another chance, I would definitely, definitely, not choose to escape anymore.

Even if there are many difficulties and pains, I must live well.

I wonder if I will see Xia Xi again after this death. She must be waiting for me in that world, scolding me?

That naive child, following me, a complete failure, yet she is always happy every day. Being with her makes me happy too.

She is so simple-minded, or perhaps she doesn’t care at all.

To her, happiness might be a simple thing?

I envy such people.

Hmm… I miss the century egg and lean meat porridge she made. Even though we ate the same porridge every morning, it was boring.

Haha.

Tsk, why is it so noisy around here? Can’t I just die in peace?

…………

Why am I thinking about all these messy things?

Wait, how can I still think?

Oh? Can I still hear sounds?

Strange.

My face feels itchy, reaching out to scratch…

…………

?!?!

Alright, I’ve figured it out.

I haven’t died yet.

Did I not die? What’s happening? I clearly saw my body turn into ashes. Although it couldn’t become fertilizer, it was dead, right?

And now, not only am I alive, but the pain in my body seems to have disappeared.

??????

Right, where is the swordsman? Why can’t I hear any noise? Did he not notice me earlier? Does he think I’m really dead? Then… should I keep pretending to be dead?

…………

Or… secretly open one eye to observe?

Just for a moment.

One, two, three, go.

I slowly opened one eye.

Then I saw the swordsman still standing there. The originally calm and composed face now wore an expression of shock, staring at me unblinkingly, mouth wide open.

Oh no, I’ve been discovered!

I quickly closed my eyes again, lying motionless on the ground.

“…”

“…”

“…”

“Don’t pretend, you can understand me, right.”

“…” If I respond now, I lose!

The atmosphere was perfect, like the grand finale of a magnificent chapter, the hero finally defeating the monster, ready to welcome the impending cheers. Isn’t this how the story should progress? If he discovers I’m faking death… although it wasn’t intentional, it’s still embarrassing!

Moreover, I seem to be no match for him.

Anyway, I’m just a monster, isn’t this fine?

Praying silently, please don’t discover me, please don’t discover me, please don’t discover me…

“…”

Zizi.

“Ahh!”

Feeling a strong electric shock on my buttocks, I immediately sprang up from the ground, took a step back, and assumed a defensive stance, frowning at the swordsman in front of me.

Then I stretched out my right hand… rubbing my buttocks, which stung a bit.

Hmm, why is my buttocks so smooth… Hmm, why has this bearded swordsman grown taller?

No, why have I become shorter?

Also not quite right, why can my right arm move? Where’s the wound? And my arm…

I looked at my arm; the skin was as delicate and smooth as jade, like that of a newborn baby.

It’s normal skin!

Hmm, hmm hmm!?

Could it be that I’ve turned back into a human?

I immediately felt an urge to check my body thoroughly to see if I really have turned back into a human. But with a great enemy in front, my vision was locked onto him to prevent any sudden attack.

“You…”

“You… don’t speak, let me… think.”

The swordsman was about to speak when I interrupted him. My eyes were still fixed on him as I began to ponder.

The black smoke surrounding both of us almost completely cut off the outside world; I couldn’t see outside, and those outside couldn’t see inside either. The previous black smoke serpents, which had a faint connection before, could no longer be felt at all; they must have dissipated when I “died” just now.

The living knights must be waiting outside the black smoke, awaiting a result. They don’t know what’s happening inside. The black smoke kills upon contact, so they dare not attack directly. Thus, now it’s just a staring contest between me and the swordsman, but I’m a bit worried about the old man in the robe. I wonder if he has any new tricks up his sleeve.

But come to think of it, this swordsman doesn’t seem very afraid of the black smoke. When he stabbed me in the chest earlier, he actually came into contact with the black smoke, yet he doesn’t look like he’s affected.

Right, the wound on my chest!

I hurriedly checked my chest again… No wound! Hmm? What’s this? Why are there two small, soft lumps… What the heck!?

My brows furrowed, my expression serious as I stared at the swordsman, whose gaze seemed to be turning bizarre. My heart was already in chaos.

I realized that things were beyond my imagination.

…Take a deep breath, relax.

With some disbelief, as if trying to confirm once more, my trembling hands gently grabbed the two soft lumps on my chest.

“Mmm…” A tingling sensation came, and I couldn’t hold back a soft cry.

F*ck f*ck f*ck f*ck f*ck f*ck f*ck f*ck f*ck!!

Vaguely understanding the current situation, I gradually lost control of my emotions, with thousands of curses racing through my mind. I completely ignored the swordsman’s teasing gaze and quickly lowered my head to examine my body. All I saw was a white expanse, a bare body, a smooth buttocks, a slender waist, a plump chest, and a bald mound between my legs…

Where’s my brother!?

Me! Brother! Where are you!?

Ahhhhh!!!

For a moment, I thought it would have been better to die earlier.

Although I said earlier that after rebirth, I wanted to be a woman.

But that was just a joke! Don’t take it seriously! And this body isn’t a little girl either!!!

My mentality is collapsing, my face pale as death.

“Cough cough, since you’re not dead, let’s talk for a bit.”

The swordsman spoke again, sheathed his sword, and sat down cross-legged, looking as if he had me figured out.

I recovered from the shock of near-death and breathed a slight sigh of relief. This swordsman was too powerful; I was a bit afraid of him.

Now is not the time to daydream. I need to adjust my mood and find a way to escape this predicament. However, judging by his appearance, he seems to be temporarily holding back.

But I can’t let my guard down; maybe he’s trying to mislead me, then strike me fatally when I’m unprepared?

His hand is still on the hilt of the sword.

“You… won’t… hurt… me? Uh…”

Only now did I notice that his voice was even softer and sweeter than expected, with a slightly sticky pronunciation. Although I was prepared, it still startled me.

Alright, now I basically confirmed it in my heart. Although I really don’t want to admit it, I indeed, probably, maybe, not necessarily? In short, I’ve turned into a girl.

I really want to weep in the wind… shed a tear for my beloved little brother.

Damn sky!! Is this how you play? You didn’t let me die, and now you made me turn into a monster, hit by a fireball right after birth, followed by a beating, and now you make me a girl!?

F*ck my life.

Wait a minute.

Now my body is bare, wearing nothing, and this bearded swordsman has been staring at me since just now. Does that mean he’s seen everything!?

If I were still a man, it wouldn’t matter, but now… realizing this, I quickly squeezed my legs together, hugged my chest tightly, and glared at him with wide eyes.

“…Put some clothes on first.” The swordsman’s gaze was strange as he threw his pure white cloak towards me.

“Uh…” I quickly caught it and wrapped it around myself, ensuring my body was fully covered and wouldn’t show anything. After raising my head again to meet the swordsman’s gaze, I felt a slight warmth on my face.

Damn it, Chen Yuxuan, why are you blushing? What’s wrong with you, acting like a sissy, never seen a woman or a man before?!

Your mentality is really f*cked up right now!!

“Hahaha, you actually feel shy! Are you really a monster from the abyss?”

The swordsman laughed as if he had found something interesting, amused by what he saw.

Laugh all you want.

Looking at the swordsman’s big grin, I wished I could turn back into a monster and punch him in the face with a sandbag-sized fist.