Chapter 32

How much time has passed?

An hour? Two hours?

I don’t know.

*Slurp— Slurp—*

Ever since my brain melted from some unknown drug, the concept of time no longer held any meaning for me. All I could do was accept reality, utterly crushed by Mardian, powerless.

“Sniff… Sob…”

Where did it all go wrong?

Did I follow the wrong path?

My childhood friend, loved by everyone. I merely imitated her. I copied her actions exactly, basking in the happiness she enjoyed amidst the favor of countless people.

I greeted people with a bright smile like her, listened attentively to others like her, and captured people’s hearts with just the right amount of charm like her.

But the results were so different.

My childhood friend gained the affection of many, but no one ever crossed the line with her. At most, they timidly confessed their feelings. No one ever took it further.

How do I know? Because she always told me, as if boasting, whenever something happened.

*[You know? I got confessed to today? By that senior in my department who’s rumored to be handsome.]*

– ….

*[Hmm… Is that it? Don’t you feel anything?]*

– ….

*[….I wish you were a girl instead.]*

– …?

*[Huh? Uh, never mind.]*

She sometimes said strange, incomprehensible things, but she was a beautiful woman who lived happily, loved by everyone.

At least, she never ended up in a situation like this, being raped by another woman.

But why am I in this situation?

I only copied her actions exactly.

There should have been no error in those actions….

Why me….

Why am I suffering like this?

“Open your mouth.”

Mardian’s resentful voice pulled me out of my thoughts. Like a puppet with its strings cut, I weakly opened my mouth at her command. Mardian didn’t miss the opportunity, crashing her lips against mine and pushing her tongue into my parted lips.

*Slurp— Slurp—*

Mardian no longer gave me water. Instead, she drenched my neck with her filthy saliva.

“Ah… Ugh….”

Mardian’s tongue ravaged my mouth. With every movement of her tongue, my body twitched in response. She enveloped my tongue, ravaged my mouth, and covered every inch of me with her sticky saliva.

After thoroughly ravaging my mouth, Mardian pulled away, exhaling heated breaths. A sticky thread of saliva connected us. Mardian licked her lips, her crimson eyes burning with desire as she looked down at me.

“Ha, damn it. Just marry me, Tina. I’ll make you happy.”

Her rough words made my body tremble.

Why…?

I did as she wanted, offering my mouth, satisfying her disgusting and ugly lust. So why are her crimson eyes still burning with that chilling desire?

“Hic, M-Mardian, please… stop….”

I hate this. Stop it. I feel like I’m melting… I’m going to die. I did what you wanted. Please, just stop and let me go.

“…You bitch, are you begging me to fuck you now?”

But all that returned was a voice boiling with despairing desire. In this hopeless situation, my rationality began to fade.

“I’ll give you what you want, Tina.”

“N-no….”

Mardian’s hand slowly approached me. I struggled with all my might to push it away, but the more I resisted, the more painfully she pressed down on me.

“St-stop… I hate this….”

“It’s okay. You’ll definitely feel good.”

Mardian firmly gripped both my wrists with one hand, overpowering me. Her grip was unimaginably strong, and I was overwhelmed with helplessness. With each of her rough breaths against my face, fear and despair surged.

She held my wrists with one hand while slowly bringing her other hand to my face. Her fingers slid down my cheek, and I shuddered at the cold, eerie touch.

“N-no… Don’t, don’t….”

“Finally touching your fruit.”

Mardian’s crimson eyes burned like flames. Her breath, like a beast’s growl, was unbearable to hear. Despite my fierce resistance, her hand drew closer.

Finally, her hand slipped through the torn fabric of my top and reached my breasts. Mardian mercilessly grabbed one of my breasts and squeezed with all her might.

“Ahhghk?!!”

A sharp pain surged, and my back arched dramatically. The unbearable pain momentarily flipped my vision, and my mind spun.

“…Ha, Tina, even your breasts are so lovely.”

“Hurt…! It hurts!!”

“Endure it for your master.”

With those words, Mardian’s hand moved even more violently. Like a child playing with clay, her rough hands squeezed my breasts without any gentleness. Her fingers mercilessly gripped my flesh, and waves of pain crashed over me.

“Ahhgk?! Hiiik?! It hurts!! It hurts…!”

“…This is better than any drug.”

My desperate screams seemed to go unheard as Mardian stared at my breasts with eyes devoid of reason.

‘I hate this, it’s weird, I can’t take it anymore.’

My body felt strange. With every squeeze of her hand, an electric current ran down my spine, spreading a tingling sensation throughout my body.

My vision flipped. My mind slowly faded. If I lost my rationality now, I felt like I’d never return to normal.

I clenched my teeth, mustering the last of my strength and sanity. With all my might, I pushed Mardian’s hand away and, for the first and last time, showed her my hostility.

*Slash—!*

With the sound of tearing flesh, Mardian’s head snapped to the side. A bright red wound appeared on her right cheek. I stared blankly at Mardian, who blinked in shock, and spat out the resentment and disgust boiling inside me.

“Y-you, stop it, you perverted witch…! Just a game character! I’ve killed you countless times in the game!”

For the first time, I didn’t hold back what I wanted to say. If I were in my right mind, I would never have said such a thing. But with my mind hazy from the strange drug, I ended up making a mistake.

“…Tina.”

And that mistake led to an irreversible outcome.

“Guhk!?”

Mardian’s crimson eyes flashed, and her hands quickly grabbed my neck. The sudden pain made my body convulse.

*Crack—!*

“Guh, guhk!! Ugh!! Sob!!”

Mardian’s grip tightened around my neck. My body instinctively gasped for air, but her brutal grip denied me any oxygen.

“Gasp, gahk, sob.”

I grabbed Mardian’s hair and kicked her body, struggling desperately. But despite that, Mardian calmly continued to choke me.

“It seems Tina isn’t as obedient as I thought.”

“Hah, sob, gahk…! I can’t… breathe!”

“But it’s okay. I’ll tame you slowly, over a long time. I really care about you, you know.”

“Guh, uh, ugh.”

My body, deprived of oxygen, gradually lost its strength. The desperate struggles to survive grew weaker, and my arms and legs hung limp like a puppet with its strings cut.

‘I hate this… again….’

The pain of being choked, struggling to breathe.

The pain as if my lungs would burst.

It was all too familiar.

*[I resent you. If only you hadn’t been born, my life wouldn’t have become so miserable!!]*

I thought this life would be different.

But for a pathetic human like me,

no matter what I do, does it always end like this?

Memories I never wanted to recall began to surface again in this all-too-familiar situation.

*[Why, why were you born…! Because of you, I…!]*

Her voice echoed. Mardian’s hands choking me overlapped with hers.

Back then, I begged for my life.

I apologized.

*[Who’s your mother!! I never wanted you, not even once! Die…! Just die! Die with that damn child of yours!]*

But back then, and now, the woman before me showed no mercy as she choked me.

“When you wake up, we’ll start your training again, Tina. This time, you’ll become my pet, okay?”

A tear rolled weakly down my cheek. As Mardian’s final words ended, the last thread of my rationality snapped, and my vision began to flip.

‘…I want to see my mother.’

Even though I knew it wasn’t love directed at me. In this situation, what I wanted most was to see her blue eyes looking at me with affection.

Just as I was about to close my eyes, surrendering to my fading consciousness, a deafening noise shook the carriage. Mardian’s eyes twitched, and her hands finally released my neck.

Freed in an instant, but with all strength drained, I collapsed onto the bed, gasping for air, struggling to regain my lost breath.

“You…!”

Mardian’s trembling voice reached my ears. With great effort, I lifted my heavy eyelids to look in the direction of her voice.

“…There’s someone desperately looking for this young lady, so I’ll take the liberty of being rude.”

An unexpected figure appeared.

I blinked in shock.

Flowing black hair like a beautiful night sky, with amethyst eyes shining nobly. The woman I thought I’d never see again stood before me.

“E-even if you’re the princess, you can’t just destroy our count’s carriage!!”

“One more word, Mardian.”

The chilling aura emanating from Viviana silenced Mardian. As Mardian swallowed dryly, Viviana, gripping a blood-stained sword, approached us.

“Didn’t I say just one more word?”

Strange….

Viviana, I thought she had lost interest in me. I thought she no longer cared about me.

“One more word, and I’ll tear that disgusting mouth of yours in half.”

But am I seeing this wrong?

Viviana….

Why… does she seem so angry?