Chapter 111

Lillian was both bewildered and extremely dissatisfied with the current situation.

Last night was supposed to be Princess Viviana’s turn to take care of and guide Tina. She knew that Viviana had taken Tina to the imperial capital.

She didn’t pay much attention. After all, no matter what Viviana did, she was already someone who had failed once.

She was the one who had driven Tina to the brink of suicide. She thought that the picky Tina would never open her heart to Viviana again.

That’s what she believed.

But now, the situation before her eyes was completely incomprehensible.

“Please treat me as you wish, Lillian.”

Tina was obediently following her.

Even the rebelliousness that always lingered in her eyes had now disappeared.

Why?

What on earth happened overnight? Even the dojo where Tina used to rush in and turn on the lights no longer caught her attention.

What on earth did that princess do?

How did she change like this…!

Grit—

Lillian’s teeth clenched painfully.

What she wanted was clearly Tina’s salvation. That much was beyond doubt.

She just wanted to hold Tina in her arms as soon as possible and separate her from that devilish entity.

Once Tina returned to normal, she planned to restore the dazzling happiness of life to her.

Because she loved Tina.

Yes, she was clearly acting for Tina’s sake.

But then, what was this unpleasant feeling?

The fact that it wasn’t her but that princess who had changed Tina like this was pressing down on her with an unbearable discomfort.

This couldn’t go on.

Tina’s compliance through someone else’s hands wouldn’t completely drive out the devil.

Only when Tina sincerely returned to her side as her master would be the only chance to separate her from the devil.

Even if she didn’t like it, she had no choice but to use more forceful means.

“Are you really okay with me treating Tina as I wish?”

Lillian’s voice was dark and heavy. But Tina, on the contrary, nodded with a smile.

“Of course.”

Lillian’s hands gripped Tina’s neck.

“Ghk?! Uh, huk…!”

“Do you really like it? Is it okay if I do this?”

“Ghk— huk, kehk…!”

Tina’s labored breathing escaped her mouth. Her arms and legs struggled with all their might, but Lillian’s grip didn’t loosen at all.

Tina’s mouth gasped for breath desperately. Her legs and arms flailed wildly.

“Answer me, Tina!”

Lillian’s voice rang out sharply.

But due to the lack of oxygen, Tina’s eyes began to roll back.

Tears had already formed at the corners of her eyes, threatening to spill over.

Yet, Tina didn’t resist to the end.

As if accepting everything, she silently endured the pain in Lillian’s grasp.

“I, I, l-like, it.”

“…What did you say?”

“P-please, b-break, me.”

Lillian grimaced and released Tina’s neck.

“Hahk, hahk, hehk…!”

Tina collapsed to the floor, gasping for breath.

Her slender neck bore vivid red marks from Lillian’s grip.

Lillian’s gaze lingered on those marks and the provocative, yet somehow alluring, line of her neck.

“Spread your legs.”

“…Huh?”

Tina’s eyes widened.

Lillian smiled coldly and pointed to the inside of her skirt with her finger.

“You said to treat you as I wish, right? Spread them. I’m going to relieve some pent-up sexual desire today. You’re still a virgin, right?”

“……”

Lillian was sure Tina would recoil in horror and refuse.

No matter how much her personality had changed, humans instinctively feel shame.

She intended to draw out Tina’s deeply buried shame and rebelliousness.

She planned to slowly tame Tina again using those emotions.

But Tina’s answer completely overturned all her expectations.

“If that’s what Lillian wants… I’ll give it to you.”

“…What?”

The face of Tina reflected in Lillian’s eyes had a faint blush spreading over her pale skin.

That blush was so beautiful, it could even be called lovely.

Tina covered her face with one hand, seemingly embarrassed, but her gaze remained fixed on Lillian.

Slowly, quietly, she spread her legs to the sides.

“You can treat me like an object if you want.”

As Tina’s legs spread, her skirt naturally slid down. The shadowy white fabric revealed beneath caught Lillian’s eye, and her heart instinctively began to race.

“Are you serious, Tina? You’re really going to comply…?”

“Yes.”

Tina’s blue eyes held not a trace of deceit. Only pure goodwill shone brightly.

It was as if she genuinely wanted to be treated as an object.

“If it can help the Saintess, then by all means.”

But that pure goodwill only stabbed sharply at Lillian’s heart.

She couldn’t bear to look at Tina, who seemed to have given up on herself.

A sense of unease that something had gone terribly wrong enveloped her.

And now, her judgment wasn’t clear. The sight of Tina’s pure white thighs and the secret place between them made her heart unable to calm down.

“I, I suddenly remembered something I need to do. I can’t do this right now.”

In the end, Lillian had no choice but to flee the scene.

If she stayed any longer, she felt she might make an irreversible mistake.

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“Why…”

Tina muttered softly, staring blankly at the spot where Lillian had left.

What did I miss?

I thought Lillian wanted to see me suffer. That’s why I even asked her to torment me to ease her burden.

But Lillian didn’t lay a hand on me. Instead, she left my side with a bewildered expression, without a word.

Was I wrong? Did I need to show even more suffering?

Or… did she leave because she was disgusted with me?

“I don’t know…”

I am a sinner. I deserve to be punished.

But I don’t even know how to atone for the sins I’ve committed.

Can such sins even be atoned for?

Right now, I just want to lessen the anger and resentment of those I’ve hurt.

But with even Lillian turning her back on me, I feel lost on how to comfort the hearts I’ve broken.

I even thought that if they would just torture me, their hearts might feel a little lighter.

“I’ll do whatever I can.”

I muttered to myself, as if pleading to victims who wouldn’t even listen. Perhaps all of this is just my selfish desire to ease the heavy guilt.

‘I don’t understand people’s hearts… but surely they want to see me suffer.’

It’s only natural that seeing the perpetrator suffer would bring some comfort to the victims.

I grabbed my middle finger tightly with one hand. And then, I bent it back with all my strength.

Crack—

A sickening sound echoed as my finger twisted grotesquely. Overwhelmed by the intense pain, I couldn’t help but scream for a while.

But I didn’t stop there. I broke each of my remaining fingers, one by one.

Tears of pain blurred my vision. Screams rose in my chest, shaking my throat, but I bit my tongue hard to keep them from escaping.

Only after breaking all my fingers did I stop. But my efforts were in vain, as a bright light seeped from the floor and instantly healed my wounds.

I stared blankly at my palm, now clean and unblemished.

“Ah…”

It was then. A realization struck me, and my eyes widened.

This place was a sacred space where any wound would heal instantly. At first, I thought it was a place Lillian had prepared so I couldn’t commit suicide.

But no.

This infinite healing space was no different from a space of endless suffering.

This was the opportunity Lillian had given me.

A chance to reflect on and repent for the sins I’ve committed.

“Now I understand… Lillian.”

Even in this moment, you’re showing consideration for me.

You truly are a kind person.

So I must repay that warm consideration.

Crack—

Without hesitation, I broke my finger again. And then another, and another.

By the time all my fingers were broken, the holy light healed my hand once more.

From then on, it was just a repetitive cycle. Break, heal, break, heal.

The unbearable pain nearly made me lose consciousness, but each time, I bit my tongue hard to stay awake.

But even this had its limits.

By now, my mouth was foaming. My eyes, having shed all their tears, burned as if on fire.

“Just a little more…”

But I didn’t stop.

Just as I was about to break my finger again.

Crash—!

A sharp sound of something breaking echoed through the room.

I looked up blankly and saw Viviana standing there.

Her trembling eyes met mine, and she rushed toward me with a pale face.

“Tina!!!”

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