Chapter 70

Of course, I know they’re not that common.

There aren’t that many streamers who receive a gift and immediately jump to conclusions like, “Of course, they like me! We’re soulmates!”

But isn’t there still a saying that even if it’s a low probability, it’s 100% for the person it happens to?

Even if those people are rare and the chances of encountering them are slim, once it happens, it’s bound to be tedious and dangerous.

Perhaps it’s best not to give any leeway at all.

Leeway…

Leeway…

The perspective of a stalker in love is vast, like the Pacific Ocean, and not easy to escape from.

No, it’s impossible to avoid all of that.

‘That’s why I stay locked in my house.’

Going outside is scary, and forming a relationship with someone is several times harder. Just meeting my manager, who’s also a woman, required a lot of resolve.

‘Being a woman…’

The weight of the fake chest that presses down on my shoulders. The chest is fake, but the heaviness is real. It’s heavy.

No matter how much I deny it, that fact doesn’t change. Taking off the suit doesn’t change my gender back.

I have no intention of insisting on being treated as a man with this body. I know it’s an unrealistic idea.

But it’s stressful.

I still think my tastes align more with the guys.

I don’t want to be lonely anymore.

‘Does no one absolutely not fall for me? Someone who can just remain a friend.’

When I was a man, it was easy to find such people. After this body transformation, I’ve never seen any.

Is it faster to find a woman with interests like a man?

But that’s like looking for a mythical creature.

Ah, there’s one.

Me.

A dumb fantasy of playing rock-paper-scissors with my reflection in the mirror comes to mind.

[Is this the honorable one sleeping standing up?]

[Get up, Jeon Seol Ah. We need to continue the broadcast.]

[If the male behind the camera is talking to you in silence, you’ll be banned.]

By the time I realized, the chat was full of senseless slanders.

“What the heck is this ‘man behind the camera’? You people really say anything.”

[Yeah bro, go full dark mode.]

[It’s not fair to judge everyone by what one person says.]

[Dictator Seol, abolish the collective punishment!]

“Ah, sorry. It’s becoming a habit.”

Viewers may be a collective, but each one is an individual. It’s really hard for a human brain to grasp that. What’s the difference between locusts swarming and this?

[The quick apology is alright.]

[Do better from next time, kk.]

“Thank you. Thanks.”

Still, the idea that I can’t send any gifts because stalkers are scary is ridiculous. Of course, I don’t intend to be careless. The sender’s address will still be the company’s.

The plan was all set.

“Alright, let’s pick the raffle winner.”

I temporarily turned off the camera and headed to the broadcasting room. The video had been recorded on my phone since before, but the broadcast was being streamed via the computer.

After finishing the settings, I spoke into the mic.

“Applications will be open for only three minutes, and I’ll select 10 winners. Those who want to participate in the brownie raffle, please type ‘1’ in the chat.”

After a while, a tremendous lag started.

Innumerable ‘1’s kept coming, filling up the chat!

“Wow, the participation rate is pretty good, huh?”

I thought many people might not participate due to concern about revealing their address.

But with 30,000 viewers, the firepower is incredible.

[What, just 10 people?]

<1>

<1>

<1>

[Seol, with 30,000 people watching, only giving away 10 is unfair, right?]

<1>

<1>

<2>

<1>

[I feel a political agenda because you asked us to type ‘1’]

<1>

[Competition ratio 3000:1, legendary haha]

<1>

In the moment the chat lagged, I caught glimpses of some random nonsense.

There were complaints that 10 was too few.

But isn’t 10 a lot too?

If we add the manager, Seol Yun, my dad, and then ten viewers’ portions, it would mean I’d have to bake all day.

I’m not the owner of a bakery, am I?

With the chat and broadcast lagging so badly that it was hard to proceed, I ended the application after three minutes. There were 13,000 participants?

10 items are definitely too few.

“After the application is closed. Definitely, 13,000 participants and only 10 items was too few. Well, I could send some gift cards as a gesture of goodwill, emphasizing the meaning of receiving it from a woman.”

Some might find my thoughts and actions contradictory. While saying not to treat me like a woman, I still insisted on giving out chocolates—isn’t that ‘broth making’ (a Korean phrase often used sarcastically)?

Still, thinking about the pitiable average viewer who didn’t receive chocolates on Valentine’s Day, I thought it might be nice to give someone a little gift.

[Like]

[Big Seol]

[Before Chocolate]

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[Isn’t she too kind-hearted? ㅠㅠㅠㅠㅠㅠ]

[Will follow you for life, boss.]

[So how many exactly?]

Seeing the viewers happy made me happy too.

“I’ll distribute 20 gift cards.”

[Brighter, brighter, brighter]

[Oh, the broadcast is weird. Nothing but lights appear.]

[Total of 30 items? That’ll be some work.]

[??? Requesting Manager. Take care of this please.]

“Who told anyone to ask Manager? What’s the point of me doing it if I don’t do it myself?”

[Yes]

[Blood relative]

[You said no broth but broths are being made everywhere!!!]

[A person who genuinely cares about viewers…]

What have these people been through?

I don’t know much about online broadcasting, having only watched briefly for study.

“I’ll draw 5 brownies and 20 gift cards first before finalizing another 5 brownies.”

[Professional raffle skills, wow]

[The event is moving very smoothly.]

[Details are alive.]

“I repeat, no reselection.”

There’s probably no way duplicates could appear among so many people, but you never know in this world.

“Ladies and gentlemen, it’s time to draw the winners.”

The roulette wheel turns.

And the winners’ IDs are revealed. The raffle system allows a one-on-one conversation with winners, so I asked the first winner about their feelings.

“Congratulations! Please give us your thoughts.”

[Love you, Seolian]

[Seol Sa]

[Who is Seol?

To the blind, she’s eyes.

To the hungry solos, she gives chocolates.

To the lonely solos, she broadcasts for them.

If Seol speaks, I agree.

If Seol commands, I listen.

If Seol has one fan, it’s me.

If Seol has no fans, then I do not exist.]

“Hey, I asked for one word! Were you preparing this already?”

Maybe they expected to win.

Or perhaps they were praying and wrote it down.

It’s hard to believe they could type such an extensive praise in such a short time frame.

[Savior of solos, Seol, wow]

[What kind of prepared template is that?]

[Is this a food aid station?]

[Give me chocolate!]

[Seol must distribute chocolate!!!]

“To your point… but you’ve used up all your chances.”

[Isn’t this still broth making? Isn’t this still broth making?]

[FOXFOXFOXFOXFOXFOX]

[No, Your Honor! They seduced me first!]

No, isn’t it better when there’s an emotional exchange between humans instead of just repeating overly standardized memes?

That FOX FOX stuff is just mindlessly following others anyway.

Not sure.

Maybe some feel a sense of belonging through consuming memes.

Maybe I shouldn’t forcibly tell them not to. They seem to enjoy it.

Isn’t a broadcaster’s job to entertain the audience?

I attempted to interview the second winner.

If this gets boring, I’ll just skip the interview. We have 30 winners to announce.

[Wow]

[Turned my chocolate count from 0 to 1, thank you so much]

[Thank you! Thank you! Thank you!]

[I posted a thank-you tribute on Great Jol]

[Already uploaded after seeing the win]

“What? You did that?”

Looking at the Seol thread in LightIt, there was truly a posted video tribute.

The Great Jol is a form of full-body prostration, the most advanced form of courtesy the human body can express, and it’s also quite difficult.

─”Thank you!”

About an 8-second video expressing gratitude loudly after bowing.

“Why go this far? It’s dangerous. A simple verbal thank you would suffice.”

[Verbal thanks doesn’t convey sincerity]

[If you don’t do your best, the heart won’t reach]

No, it’s true.

A message certainly sticks more clearly than empty talk.

But if you say it like that with a typical otaku line, it sounds…

“Huff!”

Alright, okay, you did well.

I like it.

[An Anonymous donor has donated 1000 won.]

─”This room master’s reactions are chaotic, but the viewers’ reactions are golden.”

“Just stop throwing, you people keep throwing, that’s the problem.”

Humans have a reward psychology, so surely they will expect something in return for the money they spent.

It’s still overwhelming for me.

The drawing continued after that.

There were people who simply said thanks, and others trying to outdo the previous tribute. With 30 winners, a wide variety of characters emerged.

Not doing game streaming but communication streaming is actually quite fun.

The Nertube angle is looking quite promising.

Am I a broadcasting genius?

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