How much time has passed?
An hour? Two hours?
I have no idea.
Slurp—slurp—
Since my brain melted from some unknown drug, the concept of time has lost all meaning to me. All I could do was accept reality, thoroughly oppressed by Mardian.
“Ugh…ugh…”
Where did it all go wrong?
Did I imitate her incorrectly?
My childhood friend, loved by everyone. I simply mimicked her. I just copied her actions while basking in the affection of countless people.
I greeted others with her always bright smile, listened intently to their stories, and captivated their hearts with just the right amount of charm.
But the results were so different.
My childhood friend attracted admiration from many boys and girls, but no one ever crossed the line with her. At most, they offered a timid confession. No one went further than that.
How do I know this? Because she always bragged to me whenever something happened.
“You know? I got confessed to today! By that senior who’s rumored to be handsome in our department.”
– ….
“Ugh… Is that all? Don’t you feel anything like excitement?”
– ….
“…If only you were a girl, it would have been better.”
– …?
“Huh? Uhh, it’s nothing.”
Sometimes she would say strange things I couldn’t understand, but she was a beautiful woman living happily, adored by everyone.
At least, unlike me, she was never in a situation of being raped by another woman.
So why am I stuck in this situation?
I simply followed her actions, and there shouldn’t have been any mistakes in those actions…
Why am I…
Why am I enduring this?
“Open your mouth.”
Mardian’s resentful voice pulled me out of my thoughts. Under her command, I opened my mouth weakly, like a puppet with its strings cut. Mardian seized the opportunity, crashing her lips against mine and pushing her tongue into my mouth.
Slurp—slurp—
Mardian no longer offered me water. Instead, she drenched my neck with her copious, filthy saliva.
“Ah…ugh…”
Mardian’s tongue rummages around my mouth. As her tongue moves, my body twitches reflexively. It envelops my tongue, stirring up my mouth, covering me with her sticky saliva, leaving no spot untouched.
After a while of rummaging through my mouth, Mardian pulled away, panting heavily. A sticky line of saliva connected us. Mardian licked her lips, gazing down at me with her fiercely glowing red eyes.
“Ha, damn it. Just marry me, Tina. I’ll make you happy.”
Her coarse words made my body tremble slightly.
Why?
I gave her everything she wanted, satisfying her disgusting and ugly desires, so why do her red eyes still burn with chilling lust?
“Ugh, M-Mardian, please…stop….”
I don’t want this anymore. Stop. I feel like I’m melting… at this rate, I’ll die. I’ve given you what you wanted. Please, just stop and let me go.
“…This damn bitch is begging to be devoured, isn’t she?”
But all I received in return was the desperate, desire-filled voice. In a situation where not a glimmer of hope could be seen, my reason began to slowly fade.
“I’ll give you what you want, Tina.”
“No, I don’t want it….”
Mardian’s hand slowly approached me. I struggled with all my might to push her hand away, but the more I resisted, the more painfully she pressed down on me.
“Don’t come near me… I don’t want this….”
“It’ll be alright. You’ll surely feel good.”
Mardian captured both my wrists with just one hand. Her grip was unimaginably strong, and I was overwhelmed by an unbearable sense of powerlessness. Each time her rough breath brushed my face, fear and despair overwhelmed me.
While she held one of my wrists, she slowly brought her other hand toward my face. Her fingers glided down my cheek, causing me to shudder at the cold and chilling sensation.
“I’m finally going to touch your fruits.”
Mardian’s red eyes blazed like fire. Her breath was like a beast’s growl, making it almost unbearable to hear. Despite my fierce resistance, Mardian’s touch drew closer and closer.
Finally, her hand slipped through the torn gaps of my clothing and found its way to my two buds. Mardian ruthlessly grabbed one of my breasts, squeezing it with all her might.
“Ahgh…!!!”
A sharp pain surged through, causing my back to arch dramatically. Overwhelmed by the unbearable agony, my vision blurred and my mind spun.
“…Ah, Tina, how can your breasts be this lovely?”
“Ah, it hurts…! It hurts!!”
“Endure it for your master.”
With those words, Mardian began to move her hand even more violently. Like a child playing with clay, her rough hands twisted my breasts without a hint of gentleness. Her fingers mercilessly grasped my flesh, waves of pain washed over me.
“Ahgh?! Hii! It hurts!! I said it hurts…!”
“…There’s no such thing as drugs here.”
Whether she heard my desperate screams or not, Mardian only gazed blankly at my breasts with an expression devoid of reason.
‘I don’t want this… this is strange, I can’t take it anymore.’
My body feels strange. Every time she squeezed, a jolt coursed through my spine, spreading a shocking sensation throughout my body.
My vision swirled. My consciousness began to dim. I felt like if I lost my sanity now, I’d never return to how I was before.
I gritted my teeth, pouring every last bit of mental strength into pushing Mardian’s hand away, revealing my hostility toward her for the first and last time.
Snap!
With the sound of flesh tearing, Mardian’s head jerked back. A bright red mark appeared on her lovely right cheek. I spit out the resentment and hatred boiling inside me as I stared dumbfounded at Mardian blinking in surprise.
“You perverted villain! How dare you! Just a mere game character! I’ve killed you countless times in the game!”
For the first time, I blurted out the words I had kept inside. If I were clear-minded, I would never have said something like this. But ever since that strange drug entered my system, my mind was hazy, and I made a big mistake.
“…Tina.”
And that mistake ultimately brought about an irreversible outcome.
“Ugh!?”
Mardian’s red pupils gleamed, and her hands quickly seized my neck. A sudden pain shot through me, making my body convulse.
Crack—!
“Ugh, uh! Cough!! Ugh!!”
Mardian’s grip tightened around my neck. My body instinctively gasped for breath, but her rough grip denied me any oxygen.
“Ugh, kuuh, ugh.”
I clutched at Mardian’s hair, kicking at her body in a futile struggle. Yet, all she did was squeeze my neck with ease.
“It seems Tina isn’t as obedient as I thought.”
“Ugh, ugh, cough…! Can’t… breathe!”
“But that’s okay. I’ll take my time, and I’ll tame you well. I care for you so much.”
“Ugh, ugh, ugh.”
With my body deprived of oxygen, I gradually lost strength. My desperate thrashing weakened, and my arms and legs hung limply like a puppet with cut strings.
‘I don’t want this… not again…’
The pain of choking, being unable to breathe. A pain that felt like my lungs would burst. It was a sensation too familiar.
I thought this life would be different.
But a pathetic human like me,
Should I just end up like this no matter what I do?
Memories I didn’t want to recall re-emerged in a situation too similar.
“Why, why was I born…! Because of you, my life…!”
Her voice echoed in my ears. Mardian’s hands strangling my neck looked overlapping with hers.
Back then, I begged for my life.
I begged for forgiveness.
“Who’s your mother!! I never wanted you! Just die..! Die with that damn son of a bitch!”
But she, just like now, showed no mercy, tightening her grip around my neck.
“Let’s start our education again once you wake up, Tina. This time, you’re really going to be my pet, okay?”
A tear rolled down helplessly down my cheek. With Mardian’s last words, the last thread of my sanity snapped, and my vision began to blur.
‘…I want to see my mother.’
I know it’s not a love directed at me. But at that moment, what I wanted to see the most was her blue eyes, gazing at me lovingly.
Just as I was about to close my eyes slowly, feeling my consciousness fade away, a loud crash shook the carriage. Mardian’s eyes widened, and finally, her hands released my neck.
In an instant, my body was freed, but I collapsed weakly onto the bed, struggling to regain the lost breath, gasping for air.
“You…!”
Mardian’s trembling voice reached my ears. I barely lifted my heavy eyelids to see where her voice was directed.
“…There’s someone desperately looking for that Young Lady, so I’m going to impose as a courtesy.”
With the unexpected appearance of someone,
I blinked my eyes in confusion.
Long, flowing black hair like a beautiful night sky, with magnificent amethyst eyes shining through it. The one whom I thought I would never see again stood before me.
“Ah, even if you are a Princess, breaking our Count family’s carriage is!!”
“Say another word, Mardian.”
The chilling aura of Viviana enveloped the space, silencing Mardian’s words. As Mardian swallowed nervously, Viviana approached us with a sword drenched in blood.
“Say just one more word.”
This is strange…
Viviana, I thought she had completely lost interest in me. I thought she wouldn’t care about me anymore.
“Make sure to tear that filthy mouth in half; say another word.”
But I wonder if I’m seeing things wrong.
Viviana…
Why does she seem so angry?
