Chapter 482: Si Jingzhu Drifting for a Lifetime, Only Resenting Not Meeting a Wise Master
Si Jingzhu has not been doing too well lately.
It’s been a month, and even now, she remembers that day when she learned Yu Xia had gone ahead of her, the sense of despair and heartache still fresh.
…I’m tired. Just let it all end.
After all, it doesn’t concern me; I might as well find a place to die.
However, back at Water Moon Sect, she had tried numerous ways to end her life but failed miserably. Now, thinking about death was the least of her worries.
Thus, in her despair, Si Jingzhu could only lock herself up in her room every day, waiting aimlessly for time to pass.
At first, she could still read novels and comics, seeking solace in virtual worlds, fantasizing about being the little maid who stuck by Young Master Sang from the very beginning in another timeline.
But the more she fantasized, the more she grew tired of it, unable to bear the stark contrast between reality and her imagined worlds.
And that wasn’t even the worst part.
Thanks to Young Master Sang’s medicine, Si Jingzhu hadn’t been able to dream for quite some time. And every night, she worried about whether she would again share a bloodline resonance with Yu Xia.
After all, ever since Little Ying got pregnant and became increasingly unstable, Young Master Sang was often chased to other rooms to sleep—sometimes with Hua Jianglian, Shi Qingyan, and Long Huan.
Of course, there were times it would be with the bed-sharing Yu Xia.
That feeling was really indescribable. Si Jingzhu felt as if she were playing some sort of VR game, clearly interacting intimately with Young Master Sang in first-person. The ambiguous exchange turned her body to jelly, even fleeting moments of warmth left her weak and damp.
But no matter how lifelike the first-person perspective was, it ultimately meant stepping into someone else’s shoes.
The one interacting intimately with Young Master Sang wasn’t her at all.
That sensation of using someone else’s body to be affectionate with the person she liked was both intoxicating and infuriating for Si Jingzhu.
So, every time Yu Xia and Young Master Sang were together, Si Jingzhu would bury herself deeply under the covers, forcing herself not to think, no matter how her body reacted.
Though, in the end, she usually failed miserably.
After a month, Si Jingzhu felt increasingly haggard, her entire being lost in a foggy haze.
Then one day, Hua Jianglian suddenly knocked on her door.
“…Sect Leader, what are you doing?” Si Jingzhu asked weakly, “Is there more work that needs hands?”
“I’m here to check if you’re still alive.”
After looking Si Jingzhu up and down, Hua Jianglian nodded, “Looks alright, not dead yet.”
“…Do you secretly wish I were dead?”
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On Si Jingzhu’s bed, the two girls sat side by side.
“I see,” Hua Jianglian said, suddenly enlightened. “So, because Aunt Yu nourished you with her own blood, you both now have some degree of bloodline perception, right?”
“So every time Aunt Yu is with Young Master Sang, it feels like you’re the one doing it—”
“Stop, don’t say anymore.”
Si Jingzhu buried her face in her hands, hiding her disheveled expression. “If you keep going, I’ll really break down.”
“I used to just eavesdrop on Young Master Sang having fun. Now it’s upgraded to a first-person VR perspective.”
“And the worst part is, it’s with someone I despise, and I can only watch the person I dislike being intimate with the one I actually like… Aaaaaah!”
In utter despair, Si Jingzhu buried her head into the blankets and cried. “No! Just thinking about it is so painful! Can you even understand how I feel?”
“I can’t say I understand.”
Hua Jianglian thought for a moment and said, “But I’ve seen something similar in comics.”
Si Jingzhu raised her teary-eyed head.
“It’s about a blonde guy filming himself while being intimate with the female lead and sending the video to the poor victim, who cries while watching…”
“Uwah!”
And with that, Si Jingzhu cried even harder.
“Alright, alright.” Hua Jianglian gently patted Si Jingzhu’s back, attempting to comfort her. “Try to think of it positively.”
“How can I think positively?”
Si Jingzhu sobbed, “Is there anything good about this situation?”
“Think about it. If you weren’t stepping into Aunt Yu’s perspective, you might never get to experience being with Young Master Sang.”
“Waaah!!!”
Seeing Si Jingzhu crying even more heartbreakingly, Hua Jianglian felt she may have said the wrong thing.
“Let’s put it this way.”
Hua Jianglian suddenly had an idea. “You want Young Master Sang to accept you, right?”
“Yes. But… he just doesn’t want me.”
Si Jingzhu’s eyes were red, looking pitiful. “What can I do… I’m short and have a poor figure. I’m not as pretty as Sister Gu, and I don’t have Aunt Yu’s dangerously impressive features.”
“To this day, Young Master Sang still sees me as a child, a clueless little neighbor. I can’t help it…”
Hua Jianglian blinked and said, “In short, you currently lack the sexual appeal a normal woman should have in Young Master Sang’s eyes, right?”
“That’s simple.”
“Just find a way to make Young Master Sang think you’re super seductive. Once he sees you, he won’t be able to control himself, and eventually, he’ll fall for you.”
Si Jingzhu’s cries began to subside, and after a moment, she timidly looked up.
“Become super seductive… me?”
“Exactly.”
Hua Jianglian struck while the iron was hot. “Think about it; in terms of figure, Long Huan is even younger than you. Why can she easily get physical?”
Si Jingzhu pondered and said, “Because she has a great dad?”
“…Because she successfully captured the super seductive attributes of the loli mom.”
Hua Jianglian shot her a look of disbelief. “Think about it; you often see this in comics, right? A gentle, accommodating little loli can perfectly satisfy a man’s desires for both a daughter and a mother, creating an extremely appealing contrast.”
“Men can’t resist such inherent desires; their bodies have their own ideas.”
“And if you can satisfy Young Master Sang’s desires, you’ll naturally hook him in easily.”
“After all, don’t be fooled by his gentleman facade; when he gets going, he turns into a total perv.”
Si Jingzhu nervously asked, “How can you be so sure?”
“Of course.”
Hua Jianglian replied earnestly, “This is from my personal experience.”
“I often switch outfits of characters from comics and novels. When I do, that guy gets extra excited, making me unable to sleep well all night.”
“Do it all night…” Si Jingzhu couldn’t help but let her mind wander again.
Moments later, she wiped away her drool and deeply knelt in front of Hua Jianglian.
“Si Jingzhu has drifted for half a lifetime, only regretting not meeting a wise master. If you don’t reject me, I wish to call you my adoptive father.”
“Please, adoptive father, teach me how to become seductive!”
